When You said, "Seek My face," my heart said to You, "Your face, O LORD, I shall seek." Psalm 27:8
Sure, my heart says that, but my mind likes to give me 'what ifs' and 'buts' and 'are you sures?'
So, tomorrow, I am going to do it. All signs are pointing me to quit my job. It is so scary. I am really comfortable there, but God never called us to be comfortable.
Here is how I envision the conversation with my boss (after the pleasantries):
me: I need to give you my two-weeks notice.
boss: Well, why? Is something wrong?
m: No. Honestly, the reason may seem rather strange to you. It is not because of anything here at work or even at home, but I feel God calling me to something different. And the really weird part is, I have no idea what that is yet.
b: Is there anything I can do to keep you here?
m: No, this is almost beyond my own will too. This is a very strange situation to be in. But I know I need to do it.
---I really don't know where the conversation might turn from here. And who knows if it will come out how I wrote it down. This is one of the scariest things I have ever done. I hate disappointing people, and logic would say that I really have no reason to do this. But I also hope that this will be a chance where I truly get to share my utter and complete faith in God. I think that the best time to discuss this with my boss will be around 5, because I think it will be good for all of us to have the evening to go over it. I don't know when she would consider telling my co-workers, etc... I am so scared. Please pray for me: for strength, courage, words, wisdom, all the tools I will need to do this tomorrow. Please pray for my boss and co-workers: for understanding.
Almighty God, Be my strength. Be my voice. Be my thoughts. Be my intentions. Be everything for me. I know that I should not be so scared. I know that you will provide for me, but I REALLY need you to speak for me, to move for me tomorrow. I don't have the strength and the courage to do it on my own. I know it is only through you that I live. Be my guide. Shelter me. Love me. I love You.